Kangana Ranaut may be on a golden run on the professional front -- however, her personal life, she says, was never easy as she was the "unwanted child" in her family.
The actress made this bold confession at the launch of a new cover of Femina magazine, that features her along with her sister Rangoli, an acid attack survivor.
"My parents had a child before Rangoli, who died within 10 days of his birth. He was called Hero. My parents couldn't emerge from the loss of that baby boy. But then Rangoli happened and she was taken care of, there was a huge celebration.
"But when I was born, my parents, my mother especially, couldn't come to terms with that fact that they had another baby girl," the actress, who has portrayed women-centric characters in films like "Queen" and "Tanu Weds Manu Returns", said here.
"I know these stories in detail because every time a guest visited, or there was a gathering, they repeated this story in front of me that how I was the unwanted child," she added.
Kangana further confessed: "It's very hard to live in an environment where you're reminded and constantly told that your existence just happens to be there... That you are not meant to be here."
I WANTED TO MAKE FILM ON SISTER RANGOLI
Kangana Ranaut considers her sister Rangoli, an acid attack survivor, a "real hero". The "Queen" star says she had once wanted to make a film on Rangoli's inspiring life, but the latter felt it would be a flop.
Kangana spoke here on Tuesday at the new cover page launch of Femina magazine featuring her with Rangoli.
Talking about the struggle of her sister, who is also her manager, Kangana said: "Rangoli is a real hero and she should get her due, but we are not the kind of people who go out there and seek acknowledgement for our struggle. Rangoli's story is extremely sensitive.
"I want the society to applaud and acknowledge people who are real heroes. Rangoli is one such real hero, and I am very proud to be her sister. She has been my inspiration," she added.
Further, the 28-year-old actress revealed how she wanted to make a film on Rangoli and play her onscreen.
"We were shooting in Arunachal Pradesh and when this cover (of Femina) came out, I told Rangoli that I want to make a story on you and I want the rights of your life. I want to play you. She (Rangoli) said, 'Yes, it will be a very big flop film'," Kangana quipped.
On a serious note, Kangana thinks that her life is not as exciting as Rangoli's.
"Rangoli's life is far more interesting than my life, thanks to her husband who has been madly in love with her since day one. I don't have a lover like that, so I think my life is not as exciting as Rangoli's."
